Hey everyone......wow, okay......::clears throat as tears roll from cheek::......eh, only one person makes me nerves like that, and they know who they are......anyways......well, imagine one person....imagine them with just one gaze to change your entire life......imagine that every time you catch a small glimpse of them, or hear their name; your heart skips a beat, your whole body goes numb, and your at complete peace........now imagine that person is you......right now........reading this, for me.........and if your not..........well go somewhere else, I'm trying to have an intamint (I know it's spelled wrong!!!) moment !!!!! hehe, anyways......but for realz.......I hear things, people hear things, people talk.......gossip everywhere, there's no escaping.......so, you ask that person right? ..hmm........well anyways.......I'm totally madly in love........I'm confessing it, someone once thought I was obsessed.......well, to a point yes.....LOL, a platonic obsession.......one that is caused by love........ya see, the thing is.......I can't run, there is no escaping, I can't hide, there is no way out.......now admitting there are some scars, but who doesn't go through something, to get to the better something.......and maybe I'm just a stupid lil teenager........or some freaky lil satanist.......or whatever.....you won't ever know till you get to know me........now I ask once again........do you want to know me????............I mean, ALL of me........if not, I'm wasting time and will die a depressed single............LOL, but if so.....find out.....love can only get stronger.......better........till death due us part is a bunch of crap,.........cause even after death.......I'll still be waiting..........................

check out this bull mess..........I'm out of the mall going to my car and someone keyed my car......hmm nice work dude, hmm however your going to have to pay for the damages and w/e else the law decides to give......not very smart.....don't mess with a man with high connections......and I have to admit, I thought it was another guy and I appologize, but come on, the other dude totally had it out for me and drove in the direction of my car, and mentioned doing that to my car to others.......of course I assumed he did it.......who wouldn't?? I mean, the guy that really did it I have never spoken to in my entire life.......don't know the guy, apperently he was told some stuff and just didn't like me however that doesn't give him the right to key someones car.......anyways......

this is wierd, since practice was cut short today, I had some spare time to kill at the mall b4 church........and not even 30 seconds when I walked into the food court........I see a dude running and hear a chick screaming, "HEYYY STOP HIM!!! SOMEBODY STOP HIM" and I look around at everyone sitting down and no one does anything so I start running after the dude and he threw his jacket back at me and hopped in a car and I wrote down the license plate numbers......lol....and gave that to the cops and I have to go to the station tomorrow to file a report. LOL , not to mention a huge freakin knife was in his jacket that he threw at me........how crazy is that.......apperently the dude had stolen an expensive knecklace from the ......hmmm, what is it called......eh, one of the middle isles of the mall stores, ya know, the ones that people rent to sell their stuff......ya......eh.....anyways.....well dude, I'm out like a fat guy in dodgeball, lata.......

Mi muy bonita novia.......hmm. te amo......Yo soy......muy interesante en ella bonita......bonita.......eh, love........lol.......well, she means the world to me........people tell me that I should "date around" and see what I want and for her to do the same........but if what you want is in front of your face.........why would want anything else.....and then they say, "well, how do you know what you want if you haven't been around" .......why would you want to be around........how do you know if your in love, you just DO......that's why I don't have to "date around".......to "find" what I want in a female........it's so retarded.......just b/c that's what the last generation did before us......doesn't mean it's right........not to mention I couldn't bare to see her in anothers arms other than my own.......I mean, just knowing she was with another a while back killed me......God would have had to help me if I actually saw them together back then......but, the past is the past.......and all I have time for now is the future......Faith........ :) .......je'tiame.......mi amora.........te amo......me bonita, caliente mami.......lol, I love you.......I really do........muah.......

K....so I'm totally taking a poll......and what not.......if you think punks/rockers or anyone that is considered "different" is most likely to become a "good/bad" person......lemme know, or if it's the Valedictorains.....and Saludatorians......and straight A students (and preps) are most likely to become a "good/bad" person.....lemme know......I just found out that one of the most "popular" kids in my school .......well, cheated for a while on 2 dudes.....and played them.......they like to drink......and rely on rumors rather than speaking to a person themself.....also past "teachers' pets" and the ones that were considered, "most likely to suceed in life" .......just got kicked out of D&Ds for public intoxication......all underage.......okay......I was like hated for nothing in high school......by a lot of people.......and most of the teachers thought my life's ambition, my music, wouldn't get me anywhere in life.....and it's a lost cause....and that I am a trouble maker......and wouldn't get anywhere, and like this bad apple........what the bull mess.......I have NEVER cheated on anyone.......and don't drink and drive, that really makes me mad, if I even drink at all.......I MIGHT once in a blue moon, so I'm trying not to drink at all......and I won't believe hardly anything unless I heard it from the person themselve or feel as if I was lied to........I love music.....it inspires me and others.......it's so powerful, I don't care what anyone says.........and just because I view things differently......doesn't mean I'm a horrible person........or like wrong........grrr.....well.....someone talk to me on this one.....let your voice be heard......peace and love........

okay cool, new songs and what not.......ummm one called, "scream" ......."I get by" ........"A place called home" and a couple others.....working around schedules and practice this next Sunday......and lookin for a new job......a decent paying one so if you totally know of any.......hehe lemme know.......whooo hooo.......went to a haunted house.......it was cool.......and uhhh, found some interesting things out about who I was with to........boy was that odd.....any ways....hit me up.......lata ......Ikleonvoe auNenoa.....hehe......

Hmmm, Faith- the substance of things hoped for.......is that not what keeps us going through these years? If we are but on a strand........just a hanging in what seems as an eternity.........is it not hope that keeps us going? The hope that even in the darkest storm that through the clouds there is a light shining.......and that it will soon shine so bright........hmm just a thought, lemme know whatcha think......click on "Give it to me( haha)" lol......and lemme know.......lata

hey guys, what's up........okay, so now it appears as though I'm leaving tonight and will be home late tomorrow........YAY, I miss Agape sooooo much now. I've felt tears go down my eyes from it. ::sighs:: ah, home........friends, family, band, girl, lol, hehe.....well she's not mine but.......well.......eck.....she will be....... ::smiles:: hehe

a new song in progress.......score huh.....it's pretty cool.........but uhh, all I got is the chorus........so umm I'm up here in Michigan and missin good friends but it's pretty cool up here.......literally that is.......it's like 60 freakin degrees......HA!! so beats Tx weather.......ack, .............almost sounds like the perfect girl....kinda like Anna....she will make an excellent wife one day.......but the man betta treat her right or he'll have to deal with me........that goes for my sis Patrice as well.........she's getting to the age of dating so.......watch out guys..........

WOW! LAst Night was pretty sweet..........I totally met this chick named Cassidy.......(not sure if that's how you spell it).......I mean she's really cool cept she lives in Maryland but Hey.......more promotion for the band......lol.......but naw, she's a really cool person and I'm totally glad I met her.........and interesting enough she's not like some of the other girls I met esp b/c of where we were at...........but yea.....I went with a couple friends uhhh no names.......(the walls have ears).......and one of the dudes looked pretty bummed cause I guess he can't dance or wouldn't......but he ended up seeing someone he knew and danced a lil with some chick........and then my other friend ::cough cough:: ends up dancing with this chick who he WASN'T suppose to be with........another story another day, lata!